I still remember on the last day of 2011, i had a kiss on 12 dot from the love of my life to start off my new year. I thought, i really thought this year would be great. With just my boy, my family, my friends. What made me had this naive thoughts was maybe because i had him with me on my first day of 2012. Waking up with a morning kiss, cuddling and snuggling together was really a great start but soon, things went out of way. I then fell terribly sick, so sick that i was admitted into the hospital. E was with me all these while, he really made the effort to come down just to visit me after work sending me countless sweet text a day even tho i was bedridden and hardly reply to them because most of the time i was too sick to get up. Not forgetting how worried my family members are and really took care of me like i'm a baby. But one thing that disappoints me the most was, my bestfriend wasn't there. I still remember telling E how upset i was.
Then soon again when i was discharged i fell sick again, this time it was stomach flu. I swear nothing feels as bad as having to have stomach flu. You can't even count the number of times you vomitted within half an hour, explains why i lose so much weight during that period of time. So everything was rather okay after recovering and how happy i felt when i met E in school during my graduation day after not seeing him for like 2 weeks? Not forgetting how his mom and dad went to get me an amulet because of my deteriorating health. How i stayed over his place so often and wait for him to get home from school. Once he even surprised me with ice-cream because i was craving for it. :') So school started for me after, a level higher with my clique still just that not all of them was there now. Then one day i remembered when i was over E's place the night before, we went to school together after like 4-5 months of my holiday break. Our first trip to school together on 2012, i fainted in the bus. How worried and shocked was he, held on my hands so tightly not thinking that we're in school and bought water and sweets for me cause of my low blood. Calling my dad to pick me up and to the doctor's again. He was really really sweet and caring towards me.
But like they say, sweetness and happiness don't last long.
We been through our first anniversary, 365 days together. Things changed soon after.... My love life, my family, my friends. And yes school too. Everything just fall out of place all together out of a sudden. I was really in a mess, a lost. I didn't know who to turned to. I lose interest in going to school either, all i knew was that i wanted to be alone so much, that i didn't went out / nor talk to anyone even at home. I couldn't even explained what was happening to me. Things went better, but more hurts came. Chaos and more chaos. All i felt was numbness. Then, till my birthday i lost someone i love so much. I was fooled so badly.. but thank god i had my friends there for me. I couldn't stand to think how weak i had be.
I guess that's what they say life has it's ups and downs. Just like a rollercoaster ride. Life is all about making mistakes and learning from it. 2013, i know there won't be that special him kissing me again to start off a brand new year but all i ever wish is my family as well as my loved ones including E to be happy and in a pink of health. Having great wealth. Because their happiness mean so much to me, seeing them happy makes me contented too.
xoxo.
2011 & 2012 was great having you. You're the best. I've always always love you, ence.
My dearest beloved boy, #twelfthmarch2011.
