Apple to my pie

When i touch my forehead, i remember how you gave me those kisses up there whenever i'm afraid or sobbing away. How i used to tell you i love forehead kisses.

When i feel my lips, i remember how you gave me passionate kisses and how soft your lips felt on mine. How i love tasting it after you done smoking because your brand of cigarettes always leave off a sweet taste on it.

The nose of mines where you always pinched it nor push it up to get me that pig nose look. Where it helps me to smell your familiar scent in the crowd. And always dugging it into your shirt whenever we by pass some strong odour places

That cheeks of mine, how you always gave a peck on it. Squashing, squeezing and pinching it. How you asked me not to put braces because you can't squeeze it anymore after i've done it. Sending you photos of my fat face always, making you laugh each and everytime.

When i lay on my ears, i remember how you used to blow in it. Whispering those 3 words with your gentle voice.

When i touch my neck line across my shoulders, that head rest of yours whenever we're on our way home in the bus and you'll fall asleep on it when you're so tired out from school/work. Warm kisses on my neck whenever you wake up in the middle of the night just to turn around and smooch it before hugging me and continue your beauty sleep. But because kisses like those were so warm with your breath that i could feel it even when i'm deep asleep.

When i look into the mirror and see that waistline of mines, how you always hug me so tight whenever we're apart from each other for days which felt like forever. And what comes after that was a "I miss you" from you, which instantly melt me deep down. I remember how you always wrap your arms around me whenever i'm cold, or just pulling my waist over closer to you hitting my bums and then we'd chase each other fooling around.

How we'd always play childhood games with our thumbs and fingers and you'd always let me cheat with 2 hands. I'd always tease your fatty cute fingers, biting on it. I remember how we interlock our fingers together and it gives me the feeling that it fits perfectly, always holding my hands so tightly never letting it go in the crowd or infront of your friends.

I miss receiving surprises from you where you'd lie to me about playing dota but yet popping out from nowhere. I miss how we'd meet up almost every single day after school, going back to your crib for a nap and you'd never fail to send me home or accompany me back to get my clothes/uniform over to yours.

I miss sending and receiving cute texts from you. How i'd always throw tantrums because you pay more attention to those games more than me, awaiting for your goodnight text till i fall asleep holding my phone on my hand always. Buying back dinner and feeding you with it because your game haven't ended. How i always whine and whine about your games.

I miss annoying and disturbing you when you're asleep. Tickling you up and then you'd get so annoyed giving me that very angry look and falling back asleep. I remember how deep of a sleeper you are that me and your mom always get so pissed trying to wake you up. Not even the alarm or vibrations of your phone can irritate you at times. And when we were too tired we'd end up stopping the alarm on your phone and carry on sleeping till your mom came in to wake us up and we'd be so late for school together.

I miss snuggling in bed with you all day long doing absolutely nothing. Just tickling, rolling around, playing games on our phones together and cuddling. Snatching blankets, using Jerry's tail to tickle your nose or armpit. Catching drama in the dark together or movies on the cinema at home to save money and our main purpose was to just cuddle together.

I remember how easily you fall sick. And i'd get herbal tea for you tho you hated it but i'd always force it down your throat always. Wetting 'towel' every 10 minutes and placing it on your forehead when you're asleep and letting you sweat so that your fever would subside. Not to mention how worried and caring you were when i fell sick.

I miss how you piggyback/carry me from your room to the kitchen and then we'd wait for one another to wash up before crashing on the bed together. I remember there's a time you piggyback me out of the chalet room to the balcony because you didn't wanted me to walk bare footed. Silly you.

I miss how we always have inside jokes among ourselves and creating new alien language only the both of us understands. I miss how we make up so fast after each and every quarrels.

We would go around disturbing one another. Chasing one another. Playing with one another, teasing but not getting offended in any way. Being so so comfortable with one another..

Shall not deny that his the first guy i gave all my best to. All my efforts, my strength, my tears. The only one who can make me so insanely deeply in love with him at one point of time yet in a blink, so angrily sad over him. Someone who knows me inside out, and understands my emotions so well. That go through good and bad times with me. Makes me smile to my phone like an idiot always and so weak to a point too.

Couldn't imagine why did we landed ourselves in such a tragic plight. It's just made me question why did god wanna take away all our good times so quickly? I miss times back in 2011 so much. Till then, i hope one day we would find our way back to one another's embrace once again. Missing you, loving you so much too much very much Ence.