temporary

it's 6 in the morning and i just came back from zouk feeling high and all emotional too. i guess i just needed somewhere to rant before i could rest my head on my pillow peacefully and probably coma till tomorrow evening. anyway.. this feels like it's going nowhere. like i don't see a point in putting effort if you dont? i mean more or less i'm a girl and i shouldn't be the one initiating and stuff whereas it's the beginning. i don't see the importance of me in your life, i don't see how you need me too. i guess we're just calling each other for the sake and things don't rly seem to work out anymore. i remember how you said it's been a month together but define "together"? yeah you do fear at times i guess but nah.. not on most times. things just changed. conversations turning shorter, intervals became longer, presence are drifting. sometimes i rly wish all the others who annoys or cares for me could be you instead; i don't even want their sweet sugary words. then again i thought to myself.. another temporary happiness with you, maybe? because this time i'm not afraid to walk away just to protect myself from falling more and getting hurt that badly again. it's true, i rly had inentions on working out with you D. but it's up to you on how this gonna be lead on. if you want to work it out with someone, put in efforts and play your part. cherish and treasure everything, don't give up. the question is, are you willing to?

"even though it hurts I can’t slow down walls are closing in and I hit the ground whispers of tomorrow echo in my mind, just one last time."