Into my soul.

Hospitalized

2012-02-04T16:55:00.000+08:00

Oh yes, i'm hospitalized. I'm almost bored to death. Waiting for my friends and bby to come over to visit me with my mom by my side now. I was admitted in here like two days ago due to my sudden high fever of 39.7, yes it was the highest fever i ever got. I ALMOST faint again. Thus was sent in here and at first i really don't like to stay in here. I have this fear in me and it made me tremble nonstop but was better after my mom massage my hands and legs. She stayed to accompanied me till evening before she went home.

My dad and aunty zaymie came. They went down to got me my dinner. At that time i was alone, i thought to myself if only baby would suddenly appear and accompany me because i don't wanna be alone but i know it's impossible because he had work earlier on. But to my surprise, when i turned my head out of the door, i saw him just outside the door step!! I but happy, really happy and shocked. He made the effort to come down just because he miss me. Such a dear. :'))) He accompanied me till my dad and aunty zaymie came back and till they left. We talked alittle, and he laid me in bed before he went off. I couldn't sleep at first but i remembered what he said before he left and eventually fell asleep with 'A thousand years' song playing in my head. HA HA.

Although his not the first i said his the best i ever had too, but his definitely my bestest boyfriend/person in my life now. I love you bby, x. :)

Stay true

2012-01-02T04:29:00.003+08:00

It's the starting of 2012. Everything was great. I had the last minute of 2011 with Eugene by my side and also the first moment of 2012. He even welcomed me with a kiss, it made my 2012 a good one to start off with. Waking up to the first day of a new year is him i saw the moment i opened my eyes made me happy too, his presence and everything. He was also asking, why do i looked so hyper active. Heeeee.

This year, i hope everything will be fine. I hope it isn't as shitty as heartbreaking as painful and as many tears. I hope i'll stop losing people from my life. I hope for so many things.. But sometimes i'm just too sick, too tired of looking forward to anything or putting any hope onto it. Because in the end, disappointments just all came crashing on to me instantly. To me, life is actually meaningless. I'm always having risk in everything. Oh well..

It doesn't mean you can take her for granted because you know she love you too much to walk away.

2011-12-31T02:37:00.000+08:00

Today's gonna mark the last day of 2011. To sum up, my 2011 past damn quickly. I went into a new school, having new friends, new interest, losing people in my life. Tears, laughters, pain, hurts. Most importantly, i had Eugene with me.

Well, although we didn't really had a smooth relationship but i belived all those fights and tears made us stronger and close. Though we don't really meet that often now. But distance ain't a problem, i hope? To think of it, 2012 gonna be a huge changes. With him starting school earlier and i guess i'll find a job or so, so each of us will get busier and oh.. i can't imagine how it'll be. Besides, i really cherish and appreciate every little time i get to spend with him now before play time is over. And friends wise, i got to meet up some of my girls during this month. Was a great catch up one. Many were either working or with their guy. So yup. I hope i gonna start 2012 with a happy one. Hopefully my boy by my side though..

2012 :
Be stronger.
Don't expect, don't hope, dont have any thoughts of it to prevent disappointments. (Altho it's kinda hard)
Study harder than this year if i got into H.N
Spend quality time with friends and family.
BE HAPPY.

x

Princess for the day

2011-12-20T00:04:00.001+08:00

It's my birthday! (Yesterday) Celebrated it with my dear boy. As you can see by the title above, I was the princess of the day! No matter what I did, how I annoy and irritate him, what I say, he restrict myself from being angry with me because he wants me to be happy on this special day. How sweet. X

He initially wanted to surprise me @ my place but it was having a big downpour. And he sucks at lying! We went cathay to catch a movie, Alvin and the chipmunks 3 and headed for dinner after that. It was his treat. >:) before that we went past this cake shop and he insisted on me choosing a cake I like before I could leave.

Took a mrt back to my hometown and then bus back to baby's place. And this was the surprising part! I came out of shower seeing baby standing there with a customized cake on the table. Was in total shocked. Was also the same cake he insisted on me choosing earlier on. Boy was I happy then. He kept rushing me to blow the candles and cut the cake because after 2 minutes it'll be past 12. Although this was a very simple celebration but still I'm happy because he spent it with me.

I love you so very much bbyboy, x.

:(

2011-11-27T15:04:00.000+08:00

This morning when i woke up from bed as usual the first thing i would do besides checking my phone is to run up to my hamster cage to play with kiki. Something shocked me this morning. I found it lying in a unusual spot in his cage with his both legs flat down like as if his in a 'flying' position. I knew something wasn't right because he never laid in this way before. I called for him, there's no respond. I poke him, he didn't move. I then observe it, his wasn't breathing. I was shocked, tears just fall. Called mom and told her about it then baby. Waited for mom to be back home, she was devastated by his grief too. Made a small coffin for him and went to buried just downstairs our place, the playground.

(Taken at the start of the year)

Sigh. Days without kiki will definitely be different. No one to accompany mom when me and bro's not home. His been with me for two years counting. Been through with me through my happy, sad, angry times. I feel a part of me has been taken away.. :'( Well.. Dad gonna get me a new hammy and mom claims it must be the same breed as kiki. How cute can she be. It's upsetting, but i'll never forget kiki and no other one can replace him. I love him. My first ever pet i took care of. X

2011-09-04T00:57:00.000+08:00

Meow.

I love this adorable qtpie above soooooOooooooooooOooooOooO muchie! :-*

Sky full of lighters

2011-07-20T23:56:00.000+08:00

Our roads has been kinda rocky these days. But how should I define our rocky? It's like we argued and get angry over small little things and within a minute, things will be fine as before and those sadness and angry feeling will be gone. I don't know.. but I feel, we feel.. that this is just so special between us. My friends, most envied us. But sometimes i just feel like it's different. Maybe i'm too sensitive because I hope you knew that I wouldn't want a second heartbreak repeating the same thing.

I just wanna let you know that your so special. Someone i really can be so comfortable with. Just like my bestfriend, i rant i whine i smile i cry i joke i act silly and everything with. But I don't feel awkward nor embarrassed at all. And I know it's a good good thing! Bby, I just want you to know you're different. Please don't assuming your not. Because you really showed me that you're not those guys out there. 4 months, whenever your free you just spent your day with me basically every day of your free time is with me. You don't purposely make me jealous and you don't even flirt around. You dote and pamper me like a baby so much and reassure me always. Although sometimes i get irritated about you playing your game and late replying me too. But i guess i should be understanding because i've to let you have your own leisure time too. Can't be too clingy. You've been a great boyfriend. Giving in to me, trying to understand me and make me happy always. Y'know that i love you, from the bottom of my heart qtpie.

2011-07-05T01:32:00.002+08:00

Life changes every minute of every day. You lose friends and you gain friends. You realize your friend wasn’t ever really your friend, and that person you used to hate can make a really good friend. You look for love. You find love and you lose love. You realize all along that you’ve been loved. You laugh, you cry. You laugh so hard that you cry. You do this, you do that. You really wish you hadn’t done that. You then learn from that and are glad that you did. You have your ups and you have your downs. You see good movies and you see bad movies. You wonder if your life is just one big movie. You look at others and wish you were them. You then realize who they are and are glad that you’re you. You love life and you hate life. In the end, you just find yourself being happy to be living life, no matter what is thrown at you. -Via tumblr.

Are you happy with your life?

Break down those fears

2011-06-29T02:34:00.000+08:00

Life's been so far so good nowadays.

Because i spent most of my days of my holidays with eugene and also catching up with some old friends. It's great having to see all those bonding back and life's been so stress-free! Waking up next to your loved one on certain mornings, giving him a good morning kiss on the cheek and just cuddle around. Spending every possible time together and making each other smiles up. Ahhhhh I just wanna enjoy life ~

Leaving with one week of holidays left. How one month passed so fast huh? And one thing i really hate about holidays, i eat and eat and eat thus i'm getting fatter and fatter and fatter and finally round like a ball. :( Need to get rid all those flabs and those lazy bones already!

2011-06-24T01:40:00.000+08:00

IDEAL BOYFRIEND.
1. Do you need him/her to be good looking?
Nah. It's the inner beauty that matters.
2. Smart?
Just smart enough to read my mind/heart.
3. Preferred age?
Elder then me.
4. Preferred height?
170cm++
5. How about sense of humor?
As long as his able to make me happy.
6. How about piercings?
Not too many.
7. Accepts you for who you are?
DUH.
8. Pink hair?
Eh?
9. Mushy or no?
So-so.
10. Thin or fat?
Thin
11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)?
Not too tanned!
12. Long hair or short hair?
Not too long la.
13. Plastic or metal?
Metal.
14. Smells good?
Confirm must.
15. Smoker?
Don't smoke too much.
16. Drinker?
Able to hold alcohol more then me. (Duh)
17. Girl/Boy-next-door type?
Nope
18. Muscular?
Abit la
19. Plays piano?
Hmm.. Like romantic if he plays for me.
20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar?
Acoustic guitar.
21. Plays violin?
Nah.
22. Sings very good?
Can sing for me can already.
23. Vain?
Not as vain as me.
24. With glasses?
Anything.
25. With braces?
Anything.
26. Shy type?
Not that shy.
27. Rebel or good boy/girl?
Good boy.
28. Active or passive?
Active.
29. Tight or bomb?
Huh.
30. Singer or dancer?
Singer.
31. Stunner?
Er?
32. Hiphop?
Nah.
33. Earrings?
Anything.
34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop?
BIG NO.
35. Dimples?
With then cute, don't want also can la.
36. Bookworm?
Nah
37. Mr/Ms. love letter?
Yes
38. Playful?
As long as there’s limits.
39. Flirt?
Never. Which girl likes it?
40. Poem writer?
Can.
41. Serious?
Know when to be when not to be.
42. Campus crush?
Um..
43. Painter?
Nah.
44. Religious
Fine with any.
45. Someone who likes to tease people?
BUT NOT GIRLS.
46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak?
NO BIG BIG NO.
47. Speaks 20 languages?
Abit too multi-racial?
48. Loyal or faithful?
Both.
49. Good kisser
Ok la.
50. Loves children??
Must love our kids can already!

True bestfriend

2011-06-21T02:04:00.001+08:00

blueahlin.tumblr.com :

Clara Fong, my bestest friend, my bestest girlfriend, my bestest partner, my bestest everything. These years, she’s never left me in the lurch when i’m at my worse despite her having all that boyfriends and stuffs who always steals my date with her. i miss eating out with her everyday after school, i miss seeing her nearly 24/7 every single day of the week, i miss being embarrassed any where despite stares in public, or in school, i miss just laughing so hard we’d drop down laughing from chairs. i miss us having pms-es and we’d ignore one another for a bit, i miss squeezing some troubles she’s been troubling but keeping quiet about, i miss punching her, i miss talking to her continuously every single time i see her, i miss how we’d get sore throat every time, i miss forcing her to drink some awful herbal drink despite the bitterness, i miss studying with her through webcam, i miss staying back with her for extra classes, just us two, i miss us staying back for each other’s CCAs once in a while. i miss scolding how she always wear so hot out and guys would look at her, i miss how i always stare and get really angry at those guys or even girls who’d look at her with some fucked up face.

my eyes would water just thinking of all these times.

I’VE GOT SO MUCH MORE IN MIND BUT I SHOULD STOP. she’s one unique pretty hot cute annoying baby baby girl that i love so so much that understands me sooooo well even though her straightforwardness sometimes gets annoying. regardless, no words in my dictionary can describe or express how much i love her. my best friend, my little sister, my everything. she’s one i can’t lose. if i do, i’d be so lost without her. trust me on that. you can bet on my words baby.

http://thatlovetrap.tumblr.com/

that’s her.

-

Hey there annoying woman. See that picture up that? HA HA. Yes, i miss you with bangs man. I've always been saying that whenever i sees you. Well big girl out there i miss you man. You've always been such great company great buddy great listener great awesome friend. I miss times with you. I miss how i always annoy you and irritate you till you feel like killing me. I miss how we always stick together almost everyday and it's like i know you can't live without me (hehehe :P) I miss how i always drag you to fast food restaurants and i miss complaining and ranting to you that my whole body's itchy. I miss having to rush and panic DnT work with you. I miss studying together with you. I miss how you annoy me with those new angmohs or whatever bands you're fantasizing. I miss using my hamster to scare you. I miss watching horror movies at my place with you, going to the gym going out just doing nothing but talking with you. I miss.. I just miss everything i once done together with you.

From the day we got our N' Level results, we both know it's the day we're gonna have a new set of different life. But till today, i'm glad nothing changes between us.

For you're one that i can really count on. One that teaches me many stuffs and treats me just like a baby. One that protects me and always do whatever it takes just not to let me get hurt from anyone, anything. One that i know will be there for me always and i can turn to. One that understands me so well and love my straightforwardness rather then taking it to heart. One that seen me cried so badly before, infact, the only one. No other then you, Ong Qiulin, my bestfriend my true friend. Yes you, i love you so much my dear babe. One that i can never lose too.

Remember this? :)

2011-06-08T19:19:00.001+08:00

Love is a mix tape filled with fast songs to get your heart going, slow songs to help that perfect moment last just a little longer. It’s filled with songs that have those nice little lines of lyrics that you memorize. It’s filled with songs that you can relate to when you’re happy or sad, songs that fuel your anger. Love is a mix tape that screams for you when you can’t, love is a mix tape, an assortment of different emotions, good or bad. Love does suck, love is great, love is like a mix tape filled with everything you love and hate.

Less than perfect

2011-05-22T00:44:00.002+08:00

Reminisce...

My dear Kitty. I miss her so fucking much. She's just like my blood sister. We used to do everything together. Wearing the same outfit, saying the same thing together w/o knowing, doing things together, cry laugh and rant together, sharing secrets and almost everything w/o doubts with each other. I once lost her and i regretted it. But i'm glad i got her back before she migrate to Taiwan. I hope she's well there. She dotes on me so much. She would fuck which ever guy's life who broke my heart in the past, would always be there for me, doing stupid stuffs making me smile, cry together with me over stupid guys, and every single thing..

I hope you're well.

When hearts are bond together

2011-05-18T00:36:00.002+08:00

You meet someone unexpectedly, and having no clue how much they’d mean to you in the future. How the path of two strangers crossed, and how it has changed and affected your life so much. And how an accidental clash of worlds, was the most beautiful thing that could possibly ever happened to you? Well, it has happened to me.

I love you, Eugene Ng.

Less than 3 you.

2011-05-02T00:39:00.000+08:00

It's a brand new month once again! So what can i say about april, it past by so smoothly with Eugene by my side. Everyday is a happy day to me as long as his there! Well.. he just know how to make me smile even when i don't wish to. He just have his ways and tactics to deal with me. Cannot stand him at times, so fucken adorable. HA HA HA. See this baby? ;) And i think i must be one of the luckiest bitch on earth to have to see my boyfriend almost everyday of my life. Just hope things like that won't change but sometimes it's expected too yah? Feelings fade, people changes. Hear of this quote. So well.......

Bad stomach cramps came to visit me today. It was the worst cramps ever. Totally unbearable. :'( Wish baby's here with me but his at work. Waiting for him to end which is like in approximately an hour time so in the mean time, i only have his jacket with his scent to accompany me. But it only makes me miss him more. :(((((

DEAR COUGH PLEASE GET AWAY FROM ME, IT'S BEEN 3 FUCKING WEEKS.

Hold me up

2011-04-18T00:51:00.000+08:00

Spent my perfect weekends fully with Eugene. Over 30 hours seeing him and having him by my side. It's like a bliss having to see him next to me the moment i'm awake and before i sleep. Cuddling whole night long. Especially falling asleep in his arms, i feel so safe and secure by him. Seeing his adorable face when his asleep and right when he just wake up showing his 'blur-like-sotong' face. HAHA! ^.^ Not to forget, our first monthsary passed like a week ago. So fast and it has been a month. I love you so much baby boy. ☺♡

Jar of hearts

2011-04-16T00:30:00.000+08:00

It's been years. I've lost this special feeling. This special kind of warmth and love. It's different. I miss everything. I miss being a child in daddy's and mommy's arms. Could someone out there define me the definition of home? My home doesn't feel like home anymore. Doesn't feel complete. It's all in the past. Whenever i see happy families out there i just got reminded of mines. And those flashbacks just appeared. I remembered so clearly how everything took place. Nothing could have help, if only if only if only..

I detest how everything was. I can't imagine how everything will be few years later or maybe months? But i've learnt to accept how everything is now. I no longer have the urge to break down whenever i say about it, but still the wrenching feeling is there. If i've that one wish, i wish to feel that loved again.

Just have fun

2011-04-08T02:45:00.000+08:00

So i spent one of my Saturdays back then heading to town with my baby girls. It's been ages i've last seen the both of 'em and they're still as crazy as everrrr! ^_< Also caught up with each other much and just window shopping around town as per normal. How boring singapore can get?

Met my beauty babes on wednesday. Been like 2 weeks since i saw 'em! So crazy times with 'em as usual and we took neoprints. Yes, neoprints.. Sounded so old school. It's been ages since i last took them! Prolly 1 or 2 years back? I remember it used to be so trend back then HAHA.

So school is starting in approximately 3 days time. Rather dreading for it because i'm gonna say hello to my eyebags again. But the best part is that i can get to see baby everyday in school except that the funny thing is, i'm already seeing him almost everyday now. It just feels so weird without meeting him for a day. I guess we both got so used to it already.

Unrestricted

2011-03-30T22:05:00.000+08:00

When i was younger,
I didn't worry about how I looked.
It didn't matter if i acted weird infront of guys.
I had less than 15 minutes of homework and i don't know what's stress all about.
I only cried when i scraped my knee.
Kissing was disgusting.
There were no 'popular' people, and everyone was pretty much friends.
Everything was so fairytale and life was great.
I miss that.

Count your smiles

2011-03-29T01:16:00.001+08:00

Holidays had started for me for like a week already and it just feels so damn good. No waking up early in the morning rushing to school fearing to be late for class yet again, no feeling of depriving of sleep, no long hours of school, no these no that. That's a long list to go actually.

So i've been meeting Eugene for almost every single day but i just won't get bored seeing his face and everything. Yes, it's gonna be umpteen times i'm saying these that i'm currently together with him. Yeah yeah yeah you guys might think "WTF. You just broke up!?" But hey, you don't know what really happened between me and him. So just shut up and don't judge the book by it's cover. You guys sure not know how much effort i gave in, how much tears i shed and how much pain i've been through. How much he've done to me and i forgave him all. I might seem like i'm the bad one now, but he fucking asked me to move on so here i am happily together with my lover boy. At least i know that i really truly love him right from the start and i really gave in my all to that relationship. I've no regrets. Really, sometimes i really hope you passerbys would just stop assuming about everything. He may seems so sad and hurt, but how 'bout me? 10 fucking months isn't that easy for me to let go too but i'm moving on. I'm tired, exhausted.

Now, with Eugene. I smile everyday. And it doesn't matter anymore...
I hope to see his real smiles back again some days.

Love me the way i love you

2011-03-20T13:17:00.000+08:00

My site is officially so dead. And i've seriously lose my sense of blogging. I bet no one evers come in Thatlovetrap anymore. So, finally there's something for me to blog about. And that's my edge camp a few days back. It was one of the best and enjoyable camp ever!

And why i said so? It's because i detest camp since i was young. I detest the hard floor we've gotta sleep in and how dirty we'll get. But this camp is different, we've rooms and beds to sleep in. No showering time and enjoyable night! Plus the trainers are so friendly and caring especially Kenji.

This was the 'boat' we've to made inorder for us to get over to the other end.

Mac for supper by our CA. :)

To sum up, that's how my 2D1N Camp adventure looked like! I've participated all the activities and it's sooo not like me. HAHAHA. Okay, ciaos. Follow me up on twitter instead to know my daily updates ~

Tears won't lie

2011-03-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

A relationship isn’t strong without fights/arguments, problems, time away from each other, tears, sacrifices, irritation and heartache. Because people think that a relationship is perfect when they always get along and never fight. But really you need those things to make a relationship strong, you need those things too see how much both of you can withstand and if these feelings are just butterflies or if they really mean something more than that.

Be happy because everyone deserve to be happy in life. ♥

Watch over the broken hearted

2011-02-16T22:33:00.002+08:00

Valentine's day was great spending with my beloved sweetheart above. Although it's a very very simple celebration but i'm glad that we both are happy. :) I love you so much baby.

And i'm starting to feel so worn out from school. I don't hate the lessons but i definitely hate the hours and timing i've gotta be awake for school. I mean like, it's so unfair that other courses starts so late but ours are like fixed timing always! But one thing i'm glad that i don't feel so stressful as compared to my friends who are still in secondary school.

It's almost the mid of february already. Days really pass so fast and well, this month was pretty pretty smooth still thou. I really hope things carry on like these. Everything is so fuckin' perfect other then mum being unreasonable at times. She can really get me on my nerves till i've never ending rants to dad and baby sometimes. HA HA. But yeah i know it's for my own sake. Tomorrow gonna be my dear best birthday! She's finally 18.... and i still have 23 more months to go. :( FUCK. I bet she's gonna boast to me. :(((

Drained

2011-02-06T14:47:00.001+08:00

Ever felt so tired of everything and that you can no longer keep everything to yourself. It's like your bottle is so filled to the brim that you feel like poppin' it and letting everything inside flowing out? Feel so afraid that things in the past will repeat on you again and life is so fragile? Sometimes i really don't understand myself. My life. I don't understand why must all hard things fall upon me. Yeah, i know there's this saying that all good things don't comes easily. You've to go through rain in-order to have sunshine again.

At time i really feel like a extreme failure. Failing in everything, pulling down my own self-confidence and esteem. Bad times always have to happen at least twice a month. Good times are rarely there for us. Sometimes all i need is for you to understand me. Not well, but know my needs. My requirement from you. Promises. Family background are always in disaster. I wish my mum was as easy going as my dad. I wish she understand me more.I wish i hadn't had a broken family. No biggie, i still told myself to live life to the fullest. It takes sadness to know what happiness is. Noise to appreciate silence, hurt to understand love and absence to value presence. What's life without it's ups and downs? Every single one of us deserve to be happy. Lift up that chin.

2011-02-05T17:07:00.000+08:00

Happy chinese new year guys! So how'd all of your cny fair? Mines was extremely boring. Yes, exceptionally boring this year. Don't even have the cny feel. And my ang paos received are so little this year! Who want invite me over to your house bai nian?!?!!! :p

I'm home on a saturday. Not really.. just waiting for baby to wakey so that i can head to prepare and meet him. Didn't see him for like a week, sure gonna give him a tight hug later! Meow. And so, now i'm damn bored resulting to the slight changes on the blog skin. Next i'm gonna tumblr, continue munching all my snacks away and wait for that pig to wake up. >:( I feel so fat. But idc, after cny then diet la!

2011-01-20T23:26:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL IS DRAINING ALL MY ENERGY LA.

EVERYDAY WAKING UP FEELING SO LETHARGIC.

I NEED SOME BEAUTY SLEEP SOON.

YET.. I'VE WORK ON SATURDAY. OH GODDAMNIT.

AND BEFORE I GO. I MISS MY BABY BOY DAMN MUCH LA ALTHO I JUST SAW HIM YESTERDAY, HEHE.

OK, BYE. I'M JUST BORED BECAUSE BABY WENT TO BED BEFORE ME. NEED TO ENTERTAIN MYSELF FOR A TAD BIT. KKKKK GOODNAIZ. I LOVE YOU BABYBOY. ^_*

Into my bones

2011-01-13T00:20:00.002+08:00

Hi, i'm back! Anyone out there miss me? HAHAHA. Okay, so school started. And........... it's really boring and life everyday is mundane in there. But classmates are friendly! One thing for sure, I miss 4n3 so badly! I hate the fucking time-table oh so much. Days are long and adding on to the traveling time, i'm really dead beat each time i step back home. Not forgetting, baby and I are finally back to normal! Cleared all doubts and etc, hoping everything won't be another dream nor fairytale again this time round alright honey? Better remember all your pinky promises clearly or else you'd know what will happen. :p Don't forget our deal too!

Life have been rather pleasant with him around back by my side but seriously, the only thing that's bringing my heart down is school. Yes.... Hearing mates talking and crying emotionally about how stressful they're with works and how much they miss the old class really disheartening me. I wish i was part of it... Oh well. Gonna meet 'em up tomorrow i guess! I can't wait to see them!♥

Stay strong

2010-12-31T02:06:00.000+08:00

Yup, so it's the 31st of December right now. It's gonna be 2011 in like less then 24hours time. Wonder how would my countdown be like later. To sum up, this year passed really really fast to me. And to say the fact, it was the worst yet the best year ever.. How would i define this. Hmm. I had many experiences gained, no matter is it between friends to friends conflicts, relationships nor studies. During this year, indeed i changed. But i guess it's prolly to the better side. But what's the worst thing which bring me down was one word, regret.

In 2010, i lost many loved ones. I finally see thru whose real and whose not. I learned that things don't come easily unless you work for it. And also, sometimes you just have to expect the unexpected. While writing this post, many things flashed thru my mind. All those memories that i've gone thru this year, i hope 2011 would be a good one. Sigh.

Before i publish, i just wanna write a tiny post for my dear Ah Cheang! For she has wrote one for me. :)

Hahaha. You this pig! Thank you for being there for me, saying encouraging and humorous words for me whenever i'm down. And so far, yes, we didn't lost contact after years! Work hard for your Os next year dear! (Inserts emoji pig face) Stay strong no matter what. Remember our 'xiao yi xiao mei shen me da bu liao" okay! I love you. :)

2010, i had and lost someone which i love so much and is so dear to me. It was the worst regret and mistake. But that someone gave me a wonderful experience and beautiful memories. If only the past can be thrown away and move on together with new memories together with this new year. Well.. My resolutions for next year is simply just to be happy and i hope my loved ones too.

Goodbye suffocated 2010.

Funeral of hearts

2010-12-25T04:38:00.001+08:00

Love'y guys above!! Thanks for the cake and everything. :)

Zirca yesterday was a blast!! Yes, literally. So i finally met up almost most of my babygirls there! It's sure been decades since i last saw them. Familiar faces all around too and the worst part of it was that i wore a killer heels. So up till now my feets are still hurting like a bitch. And not forgetting, Christmas is finally here! Yeah. But it just feels like any other normal day to me. Had a mini celebration with my mates just now and i can't explain how lethargic i'm feeling now due to my lack of sleep. Sigh.

I really hope i can end my 2010 with a happy one! Bo pi ah bo pi ~
Also, can't wait to leave this fucking place. For i'll leave all my troubles behind and i'll come back with a good one, i hope! Okay, i really need to sleep! Merry Christmas Everbardiiiiiiz! =^^= All i want for christmas is, you to be right here and ........ What about you? ;)

Shot kill purge

2010-12-18T04:01:00.005+08:00

So to all my dearest 4n3 classmates up there, i'll definitely miss all of you!! Today is gonna be the last day i'm ever wearing my uniform again, ever seeing the whole cohort of academies, ever stepping into this sch again (not really thou). Well. I was really disappointed and despair at the moment i received my results, i never thought my instincts were really right.. Because whenever i said or thought of a certain thing, it would definitely come true. I was really melancholy because i know i'd tried and did my best. But after all the tears and whatever, i knew i still had to look towards the positive way. It's isn't an end for me yet! Hahaha!

Although it actually pains me seeing most of my friends, be it closest or just mates getting to promote except me but i'm still happy for them! Especially my dear babe, Ong Qiulin and of course my Phee Weiboon! :) I'm really happy for you both dear. Sorry that i've disappointed many of you, but look, i've a plan in mind already! So i hope it's gonna be fine. :) Lookin' back, how i wanted to fucking get out of this school badly but now? Kinda lookin' back.. All that i can say, 4n3 is definitely the best class i ever had with all these awesome mates. Would never forget y'all!

My dearest naggy yet potential 'mother-to-be' babe! (Qiulin)
I know things are gonna be different without me by ur side and you by my side anymore. But hey, i'll still be ur pillar of support and listening ears whenever you need me okay? Y'know i'm always behind you in whatever things you do! Thank you so much for everything throughout this 2 years i know you. Thank you for talking cocks and 'playing' with me whenever i'm bored. Thank you for letting me vent and rant at you always. Thank you for taking care of me like a baby! Thank you for supporting me and helping me whenever i feel like i'm failing or about to give up. Thank you for ALWAYS being there during my worst and weakest time of my life. Thank you for being the first to wipe away my tears after my downpour with him. Thank you for cheering me up and those epic faces!! There's too much thank you i wanna say but not tryna be mushy but this are all from my bottom of my heart and i really meant it. Promise me that you'll work hard next year okay? And i promise you that i'll too no matter which route i take and i won't ever forget you my awesome friend. We'll still have clique dinners tgt and meet up as always with the rest ok! I ruv you very bery jelly muchie! SMD cause you just wasted 10mins of my life writing this! (Y) =^^= Ahaha. Kidding! ♥ Indeed what i called, a true friend.

To my daddy and momsie.
Thank you for being so supportive and understanding still even though i know i've let your down. Thank you for supporting my decision still and telling me encouraging words. Love'y guys damn!

Tear and worn

2010-12-10T03:55:00.007+08:00

434.) sometimes, if you really want to make things work you have to keep your mouth shut

and put your hurt aside.

Don’t you hate those nights where you have second thoughts about everything and nothing feels right anymore? My December began with a good and then bad start. Please be nice for the following days and weeks. Tyvm muack. xoxo..

Solitary exception

2010-12-02T03:49:00.001+08:00

Once again, a month had past. Dear December, pls be kind pls. More happiness, more joy, more fun, less worries, less sorrows, less tears. And more food at home because i tend to munch nonstop when i'm indoor. =^^= A new month arrived, and that means it's me and my dear sweetheart's 7th monthsary! One more month baby, you know i know~ Birthday arriving soon too. Hate to be a December baby because it just suck so much to have to wait for so long and to be the smallest among all. (But sometime got advantage eh!) What's adding on is that, that fat pig can't celebrate with me due to his camp. But he promised to bring me out on X'mas!

Can't wait for all this event to be happening. I hope this will be the best month ever in the entire year. I absolutely can't explain how suckish this year was.

Run wild

2010-11-27T02:21:00.004+08:00

I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. I'm deprived of sleep. Like seriously......................... I can't fall asleep but only at 5 in the morning everyday even though i goes to bed as early as 3. And i just magically wake up early the next day and can't seem to fall asleep back.
So what do you called this kind of bizarre illness? Ha ha ha.

Days are getting sooooo boring. Like, there's no where else to go besides town and some other shopping centers. I wish Singapore would transform into like Disney Land or something exciting and thrilling one day when we humans are up. :P

i miishhhhx maii babyiieb0iiz bery the much! :'(

Unwothrthy soul

2010-11-22T23:38:00.002+08:00

Grad High-tea was a blast! Although it wasn't as entertaining and fun as i thought it would be, but i'm sure all of us did enjoy ourselves. It's really saddening that all of us would be leaving each other so soon. Look at all the memories our class had, i bet it's priceless and memorable. Love'y guys so much!! Silliest classmates evaz.

Grenade

2010-11-18T02:47:00.000+08:00

HI GUYS!!!!! So i had this sudden tiny inspiration to update this site of mines. But my mind came blank once i opened this page. And i've been stoning at it for like minutes. My life have been rather busy this days. Preparations for graduation high-tea this coming friday which i'm eagerly lookin' forward for! Not exactly to the high-tea but seeing all my 4n3 mates!!!! :) We've been fussing over why isn't it prom night instead but i guess........... god knows why. Tsk.

Had an early mini celebration for Fafa's birthday somewhere days back. Pictures above explains it all. It was sure a memorable day. Wasn't all those shopping which made us tired, it was all the laughters. ♥ Also, managed to spent time with baby over the past 2 days. I need food now!!!! F.a.m.i.s.h.i.n.g.

2010-11-10T02:59:00.005+08:00

Neglecting this site for awhile.

Find me over at Tumblr instead!

Anguishsuffocation.blogspot.com :'(

Lost on the way

2010-11-08T00:42:00.000+08:00

Self-inflict. Affliction. Catastrophe. Despondent. Mournful. Lamentable.

Your musical box music just keeps playing on my mind round and wild like those thoughts.

Whatever you once said and promised.

Safe keep me

2010-11-01T02:52:00.001+08:00

His the one that always makes me go crazy during curriculum times. The one where we'll have nonstop tiff during my important exam periods which makes me unable to concentrate. The one which keeps me thinking of him all day long. His the one where i'll smile to my phone and ignore the world constantly when i receive his sweet text. (Wink wink to qiulin~) His the one whose also responsible for my sadness worries and pain. The one who keeps me paranoid always and make my insecurities going up. His the one who'll disturb me until i can't stand it and would revenge back on tickling me hard when i tickles him. His the one which i love to disturb and rant my stuffs on after a long day. The one who'll listen to me. His the one which i'm willing to stay up after a long tiring day just talking to him or seeing him. His the one who changed my world 360degree around. The one where i'm willing to waste my weekends and friday nights with. The one which makes me change to someone that is not the old me anymore. The one which will keeps this list going if i continue. His the one i would love to spend every second of my life with, and with no doubts but his my boyfriend.

It's been half a year. And my love for you haven't decreased for a bit.
Happy 6th!

xxx

Twisted interpretations

2010-11-01T02:30:00.002+08:00

So it's once again a starting of a new month! And i'm so gratify to have passed this month so smoothly. But it was sure a hectic week for me last week. Stayed over at baby's crib and Sarah's chalet etc. Didn't get to step home after 5days out and it was sure enervate. I missed the whole week of school and i hope i've the time to go back bridging. Guiltiness is circumventing me.

Not forgetting, celebrated Darren's sixteen on i forgot when which explains those pictures below. Also my dear Sarah's sixteen too. Not all are posted, but it'll be right at my faceboooook.

I forced her to bite the candles out and she whined like hell after that. Heh heh.

I hope this month ahead will be as great like the previous. And i bet baby is feeling damn happy for he know i know something~ :) Time flies and it's our half year monthsary already. Really, lookin' back.. I've never imagine i could have gone so far with him and how much obstacles we went thru. Da best i ever had♥

Destined

2010-10-23T22:40:00.002+08:00

Ever realize humans are never satisfied no matter what? It's like no matter how hard you try and do certain something they either don't appreciate it or take you for granted. And no matter how hard you study or aim something, you just get back shitty results and don't get whatever you wish for. Somehow, the higher you expect the more disappointments you get. This sentence is hella true yeah. So i learnt not to expect anything and let things happen like the flow. So i won't get any disappointments or wishful thinking. Not to put my glimpse of hope high too.

And i don't understand why some people tends to be sucha attention seeker sometimes. It's like, being happy or sad life has ought to be going on still so why for seek so much attention for giving out frowns when you can choose to be happy. If you expect the worst, the worst will come. You're ur own sadness stress and frustration. If you let things bother you, then of course they'll. So don't let 'em, be happy. Optimistic is always the key. It is a choice, to be happy. Psychology Fact, Emotional pains last for only 12 minutes, anything more than that are just self-inflicts.

So well, this post doesn't relate to anything. I'm just blabbering out of boredom. Gettin' my saturday night home like this sure is wasted. I shouldn't have went over to grans big day if not i would be with my dear babyboy now. Too lazy to do anything. Too awake to sleep. So what am i supposed to do?

Fly like a g6

2010-10-17T20:10:00.002+08:00

Snuggling up my bed, snacking puffing rotting, reading quotes and watching dramas. Hibernating my sunday off like that is great but it would be better if baby's by my side. I miss his presence already. So finally the major Ns is officially over, life feels so good without having stress like these. But boy will i miss nvss if i don't get to come back next year. I still remember how torturous was it when i was in lower sec, how i wanted to get out of the school quickly but now, i wish days were longer in there.

I had a relish week. Spending days together and over at baby's. And had our very first class bbq at ECP. Smashing cakes and having fun with the 4n3 mates were unforgettable and joyous.

Waiting for Juatling to send me my pictures of me and baby. I believe my mirthful days don't end here yet. I'm sure there are tons to go! :)

2010-10-15T03:12:00.002+08:00

Will blog prolly on the weekends, stay tune! H33h33h33z.

With all my heart

2010-10-05T22:08:00.004+08:00

Experiencing the most hectic part of my life. Everything just EVERYTHING isn't right. I never knew the importance or what 'studying' is like until last year end when i failed almost every subject and needed a re-exam for my eoy. It almost caused me to drop. And then i was barred from taking Ns at the start of the year and started working hard but soon slacking my way off. Thus now, regret is the only thing i can say. Every single thing that flashed thru my mind only had a 'if only' behind it. If only these.. if only that.. Well. I just hope after this week and one day, everything will be resolve. Nothing else but leading out a big sigh. Hmm..

So, can't wait for Ns to be over. I'll make sure i'll brainwash every lil' notes off my mind and enjoy hardcore!

152 days.

2010-10-01T00:08:00.000+08:00

I love you for who you're.

I love you because you're so adorable and cute.

I love to tickle you and see you getting so irritated.

I love to watch you sleep.

I love tickling you up but you never fails to sleep back. :(

I love to disturb you because you're so cute when your angry.

I love how you hug me, the sense of security.

I love how you sayang me. ^^

I love how you send me home each & every time without fail.

I love receiving surprises from you. :)

I love how you always asked "got hug the bear bear to sleep anot?" because the answer will be,

I love hugging your bear to sleep till it became a habit to hug it every night to sleep.

I love seeing your "don't leave me" textes.

I love you for sacrificing your sleep to meet me at times.

I love the way you looked at me with the innocent eyes of urs.

I love how you find ways to coax me when i'm angry.

I love how you always say "dont want you liao" "really?" "no :)" Hehehe.

I love moments where we have h2h talks. It makes me know you better.

I love when you scold vulgarities and i'll always ask you to stop it.

I love times where we fell asleep together unintentionally at your crib.

I love you hugging me and i fall asleep in ur arms.

I love waking up seeing you next to me. :)

I love how your textes always makes me smile to my phone.

I love the way we disturb each other.

I love how you distract my attention.

I love how the way we got back together after such disasters in the past.

I love.. there are too many never ending 'i love's to be writen here.

But most importantly i love you whole heartedly and truly. I'm sorry if i'm not good enough. I'm sorry for all the troubles & pain i brought. We've been so far, and detest things like this going on, so i hope that this is gonna be a good new start a new month, like those good old days. You know how important you're to me silly. :) Happy fifth! (Kissy face)

Need you now

2010-09-23T17:53:00.007+08:00

Moving on to letter 12 as i've nothing to write about on 11 & 10.

Letter 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain.

There isn't specifically anyone i hate because i know everyone do have their flaws and righteous side. But just sometimes some people that you dislike just get you on your nerves so damn much till you really feel like shoving a hammer onto their face or invent a liquid for them to drink to shut their mouths up. Especially liars backstabbers hypocrite and so on. Tsk.. The person who caused me a lot of pain? This will be confidential.. Like always said, a smile will bring the sadness away. A smile will lead you to a bright side, it'll takes away the pain and let you stand strong as time goes. So probably just maybe......... Argh.

Right. I feel so depressed knowing less then half the knowledge of my humans and combined sciences stuffs. I hate studying but i don't wanna bring all of you down. But i just get distracted so easily! Any cures?!?!?!! :( Disconsolate.

Is it so easy as said?

Letter 9 - Someone you wish you could meet

2010-09-20T16:04:00.003+08:00

All these time i wish to meet a fairy odd parent. Y'know, like those in the cartoon movies? Yes, that. Because i believe that life will be greater and more flawless because of their existence. Unhappiness and troubles will magically disappear in just a wish. How nice can that be? Things will also work out the way you want or how much you can curse and swear on someone you hate with just a simple touch and they'll just vanish like the air. Living without trepidation anxiety horror. Someone to be there to share all your sorrows and to abrogate them. Although all these are just some dreams and legend of my own wild imagination but i could only hope for 'what if'. People won't start complaining how bad their life is like anymore. Agreeable?

Crumbled emotions

2010-09-13T15:01:00.005+08:00

Spent my week of holidays together with baby almost everyday. Not forgetting celebrating Renjia's birthday on somewhere last week. It was sure a memorable one for him i guess. With a result of flour boy, hehehe. Times with the clique are always the best and having zf by my side is blissful. How i wish life can be like this everyday, can be conducted the way we want. Sadly no.. Time to get back to studying mode again. Papers are coming in less then 3 weeks time again. Buck up Clara!

Define real and fake. Define truth and lies. Define love and hatred. Define reality and dreams?

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2010-09-06T13:53:00.010+08:00

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Immuned

2010-09-03T22:22:00.001+08:00

Hello september, goodbye august. Finally the most hectic month is over. There's no words i can put in to describe how horrible august was. But not forgetting my first N paper gonna begin on this upcoming monday so my hell doesn't ends here still.. Fret not, i'm gonna let down my hair and enjoy once Ns is over! To think of it, i really haven been studying enough yet for my papers. I either get distracted easily, not focus enough or getting worn down by some thoughts. (Insert angry plus angry face) The only way to make me concentrate is taking away all my devices or studying out! :( Need a breather.

Letter 8 — Your favorite internet friend

I don't really have one.

Cuts like razorblades

2010-09-01T00:20:00.000+08:00

Darling, it's now our fourth. It's no longer infatuation or anything else i guess? After what had happened on the past night, it's rather deceiving to me. But we've already sorted it out. I guess no more such things happening yeah? Remember what you said. It's a miracle for me to have come so far with you because i can never last. It may be nothing to you but it meant alot to me. Thr are tons of up and downs for us recently but we'll learn from our mistakes right. Sometimes little things will keep adding on and on and eventually to have a great impact. Just prove me wrong this time round. Loving you like always, xxx.

2010-08-29T23:05:00.005+08:00

Out with my baby boy yesterday. Caught Grown ups with him. And hell did i miss him so much. Spent the whole day with him and he sent me home in the night. Hee. Sweetheart, thanks for spending the day with me although you didn't catch any wink of sleep. I love you!

Studying session with Sarah and Alicia today. Never studied so hard before and i'm glad i'm able to concentrate. Because i always get distracted after 2hours of studying. Oh and did i mention i pass my MT without any pulling up of marks. Like a happy because i'm always a F9 girl for MT. Never ever pass one! And i'm officially left with one more week before the Ns is here. :( Boohoox12324823.

Letter 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Skipping this topic, don't wish to rank up.

Our eyes that meet

2010-08-25T18:50:00.002+08:00

Letter 6 — A stranger.

Don't really have any idea on how to write about for this letter. Maybe someone who is so dear to me in the past but seems so stranger to me now. Probably not that stranger it's just that we hardly talk at all. Things won't turned out upside down if you'd stay. But y'know, somethings happens for a reason. A reason that we might not know or better not to know. The truth may hurts but the lies hurts even more. xx

11:11

2010-08-19T23:11:00.003+08:00

Dear life,

It's currently 11:11pm, wish that my life would just get alittle better. I mean it's like.. everyday waking up to the same routine same worries and pressurizes, nothing new.

So the prelims has ended and i really need a break. Gym with my fluffy girl in the afternoon, need more relaxing time man. Like seriously la...

Eyebags are poppin' So.. just look at my naked face.

Don't laugh kay :(

Letter 5 — Your dreams

My dream is to...... well, only ms dino knows it because my class just wrote that on a piece of paper few weeks back to her! Make your wild guesses~ Haha.

Frowned smiles

2010-08-17T21:20:00.005+08:00

Letter 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

This picture above was taken like a year ago. And i preferred to put this up because whenever i sees it, it just makes me smile. You know you've been the greatest hero in my life bro. I'll never forget how we grow up in one roof and times you guided me along my life. How you reprimand me and (fill in the blank) me when i gone thru a big disaster. I love sharing my secrets with you and i love hearing from you too. It's pretty funny how we often tease and disturb each other.

You've been enlisted in ns for about a month or more and my next door seems so quiet and empty during weekdays. At times i really wish you're home, so that i could run over to talk to you about my life. Hearing you singing, shouting, screaming and the cigarette scent diffusion into my room. But.... Sigh. And things between me and momsie has been going along. :) Hey, do you rmbr this? "I lub lub eu" Heehee.

xx, fat fat.

Letter 3 - Your parents

2010-08-13T13:32:00.003+08:00

Dear mommy,

You might or might not be reading this but i just wanted to say that although at times those words you said or the actions you showed may be hurtin' towards me and vice-versa how much i said i hated you at times when we had a big tiff, you know i really don't meant it okay. I love you equally much and i never want to see you cry again. Thanks for bringing me up.

Dear daddy,

I really appreciate how much you've given me all these years. You really pampered me. And the efforts and how you protect me whenever i'm in trouble or anything. I know somethings can never be change although i yearn it so much but, i understand. I love you dd.

xx.

So my dnt is finally fucking over!!!! Like a load lifted off my chest, feels great! Really, i've great classmates and friends all over me whose willing to help so much. Love y'all so much! And i must thanks Glenn so much for helping me with solidworks or else i think i'll just be crying the hell out at 6pm yesterday. Prelims on the go now and 2 weeks after will be our major exam. Night class starting next week. Hours of sleeping are lessen. Fml so much. -Switching to study mood asap-

Hear me cry

2010-08-08T12:25:00.004+08:00

It doesn't matter..

Very apprehensive that things i imagined would happen. Feeling like a nerd this days, all i do is study study and study. Well, not much on subject papers yet.. more like concentrating on my dnt. I've yet alot to finish so my 4days of holidays would much be taken up more or less. Very much worried that I won't be able to hand in a complete set before the deadline. Sigh.

Had tons of weird thrilling and ??? nightmares this days. I'm officially deprived of sleep!!! Oh and hey there bitch, stop your acts and get your own life before i besmirch you down.

I hate life.

Letter 2 - Your Crush

Dear you,

Apparently i've no crush but a lover. Yes, my other half.

Things have been kinda cranky alot for us. I didn't meant to always make you down. You know it well enough that the both of us hated things like now to fall on us. It's exhausting. You know it. I'll pull it through but will you? There's so much for me to say but i choose to kept quiet because some things are better left unsaid.

It's now the third day. How've you been?

Did you eat your meals? Did you sleep well? Do i ever cross your mind?

(L)

xx.

Thousands of needles prickling

2010-08-05T01:19:00.002+08:00

Letter 1 — Your Best Friend.

Dear bff,

or rather someone that i once used to named as 'bff'.

You might think that i've forgotten you because you always assumed so in the past. And i regretted furthering myself from you. I missed times with you, times when we played and chatted on the phone till dawn and fell asleep on the phone tgt. Most importantly, i miss you. I'm glad sometimes you still come looking for me when you're troubled. And i really wish you're here with me now because you understand me too well. But things can never be changed. So yup..

xx.

I hope you'll be more understanding. You never know how much it fucking hurts.

Burn me down

2010-08-04T00:17:00.004+08:00

30 letters.
Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror
Might be doing this on my upcoming post. Prelims are arriving!!

KKKK. I HATE DNT TO THE FUCKING CORE.
How the fuck do i rush through my solidworks in less then a day or two with limited help and finish up my journal + presentation board. This is seriously killin' everyone of us thats taking dnt. Everyone is whining and whining about it. Boohoo. I need a stree-free pill. I want to scream into someone's ears.

Dear you,

2010-08-01T04:52:00.005+08:00

I ♥ YOU MY DEAR SENSITIVE PETTY SILLY CUTE NONSENSE DUMBDUMB ADORABLE SWEETIE CRAZY BESTEST SOMEONE WHO PLAYS DOTA AND IGNORE ME BOYFRIEND.

XXX

P/s: Baby thanks for the necklace. Muackkkk

Love lust lie

2010-07-26T17:00:00.005+08:00

Imma weird girl today. Imma weird girl today. Imma weird girl today! Because I'm kinda abnormal especially today. Heehee. Okay back to topic, Happy birthday baby!! Countless hugs and kisses 4 you. ♡ You'd better appreciate the gift i made for you! Grins*

Had my saturday spent with Juatling. Walking around town for hours and she had nonstop complains about her toes thanks to her killer heels. Poor Juatling. Spent my sunday together with baby for his advance birthday celebration. Got up early to prepare and my prediction about him oversleeping is right. Someone still say won't huh! Spent our afternoon over @ the Zoo, and the weather is seriously scorching. Over to Iluma to catch The Sorcerer's Apprentice and spent our time there. Till night and he sent me back. An awesome day with baby ytd! :>

Oh i want my bed badly now. I still have to endure through 2hrs of tuition later and my dnt journal. I NEED SLEEP.

A hundred and one hearts

2010-07-17T00:06:00.004+08:00

Two days back, my dear boy travelled all the way down from his workplace back home and down to my crib just to gave me a surprise and gifts. Heehee. Silly boy, seriously how silly and cute can you be. :) Dined with him and he sent me back after that. So today... I decided to gave him a surprise back! Went down to his workplace together with the companion of @AhlinCutlet. And boy was he shocked to see me!! Waited for him to end work and he sent me back after that. You're always my favourite, sweetheart. ;))))

Gonna have a long and early day together with my bbgs tomorrow! Have to turn in now or else, i'd sure be the last one to reach again. Okay, goodnight.

Hidden pages

2010-07-15T23:20:00.001+08:00

I'M FEELING SO ANGSTY TODAY. :( + :@

BLOG TMR.

Your hand in mine

2010-07-11T21:57:00.002+08:00

I had a delighted and joyful sunday today. Because.............. I met baby! HEHEHE.

Ok. Kinda lame over here as i've got nothing else to do while waiting for my hair to dry and head to bed. Hope things will go on smoothly between me and bby's r/s. And don't forget our pinky promises silly! :) Kkkkkkk. Gotta chao outside soon~

And,

Happy birthday for the last time dearest bro.

xxx

2010-07-07T22:23:00.002+08:00

When you fall in love, you get controlled by your emotions. You'll do the silliest and stupidest things. You follow what your emotions tell you to do. And your emotions are controlled by the person you love deeply. Your lover's emotions are controlled by you. Basically, when you're in love, you only laugh because he laughs, or you only cry because she cries. Emotions are no longer controlled by humans, but by the love shared. The power of love, so strong that you wonder hopelessly what had happened to you.

To forget you; Low kay hwa.

Super awesome book! (Y)

Had my N level English oral today. It was........... i personally think it's badly said on the picture part. But for the first time I wasn't nervous @ the reading section! Hehehehe. Sometimes i wish there's more then 24hrs a day, there are so much for me to do but yet so little time! 95 days.to.N's. :( 3 words FML.

Heart and soul

2010-07-05T01:15:00.003+08:00

Spent my friday night over at Cheryl's chalet together with my bbgs and baby for her belated birthday. Met up with Juatling over at town first to make Cheryl's birthday cake and it's really tough to trick her. She's been spamming us all along and we kept coming up excuses to trick her! Didn't get to drink that night because before we even arrive back after our movies, the whole room is already in a mess upside down. Wanna thanks baby for sending me home in the morning! ;)

Stupid but silly face. ^-^

Accompanied daddy and brother for the whole afternoon today. It's long since i went out with them for so long hours, been so busy. At night, met cliques for dinner at Sk. Had a enjoyable night with 'em although we just had some chatting around. Darren lee went telling ghost stories and we were all afraid like shiatz. Study study study~

Don't fall

2010-06-24T22:24:00.005+08:00

Had the worst holiday ever in my entire life that i could remember. It don't even feels like a feakin' holiday break for me. Many things happened, totally lethargic over every single thing.. Basic routine of going to school almost everyday, waking up such early and learning nothing in school also because the mood totally isn't there. But am really glad that my dnt artifact is halfway done although there's still alot I've to amend and add on. I hope I've enough time to complete it! Also, doing too much of dnt work really can drive one crazy!! Whenever me and qiulin sees a acrylic we'll go "filling.. buffer.. sanding!" HAHAHHA.

Someone pls motivate me to study for god sake!! N level is like 2months away and i'm still slacking off. :( In fact it's 1 1/2month only including prelims in. Sigh stress ah!!!! Pouts

I miss my dearest lzf.

Heavy hearted

2010-06-22T00:10:00.000+08:00

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Tummy is really killing me inside out.. Thus,

not gonna update anything since my mind is plain blank also.

Ever have this kinda feeling where, you can't utter a single word even you really wish to?

Endlessly

2010-06-13T12:05:00.000+08:00

Heh heh.. This space is kinda dead. Feeling so lazy to update nowadays. Follow me on twitter instead for some instant update cause I might neglect this space anytime! Okay.. maybe I won't bear too but yada. Life's been so hectic for me this past days, me and zf weren't in good terms too. But i'm glad things all worked out fine now already. Wanna specially thanks @AhlinCutlet & @AliciaLimmy too. :))

Had a clique chalet just 4 days back. Been so long since we bond like this. And i should really say, this is the best chalet we had compared to the past years where disasters always happened. Had baby accompanied me for the 3 days straight, love you alot bbyboy. It feels so great waking up having you by my side. :) Next, stressing out on my dnt artifact. Gonna really strive hard for it next week onwards. Most of 'em completed it but I haven't even merely started on it! Feel so comedown for myself.. Need to get my motivation back on! Kekekeke. Kk, time to crash off.

14112.) I'm Scared.

2010-06-06T23:57:00.002+08:00

Life's been so dreary to me nowadays.

Need to release some air soon.

Damn. Screwed. Lost. Failed. Fuckkkkkkk

Kthxbai.

You're the only exception

2010-06-01T22:39:00.002+08:00

Happy 1st sweetheart. Hiak hiak. Days passes so damn quickly and it's our first already. I love you so damn much, and everything i wanna tell you i've alrd wrote it down on the card already infact there's more I wanna say!! I'm glad you managed to scan through the card with my horrid handwriting. :$

So, had special course in the morning in school. Was real tired. Had less then 5hrs of sleep the night before busy managing the card. Way sleepy in school but can't sleep because every teacher will ask me up. :( Torture srsly, adding on with an hr of quiz we had to stayed back to complete after school. Rushed back and head down to Bugis and met baby. Caught Prince Of Persia and had some walk around after that. Although today's a short day with you silly, but i enjoy every moment with you. :) Hehe. Baby sent me back after that and i'm gonna head to bed shortly!

Cross my heart and i'd swear, i'll never leave you.

I carry your heart with me

2010-05-26T00:38:00.000+08:00

I can't stand singapore weather nowadays! Especially hot this few days. And school seriously sucks. They said lessons would be resumed as per normal, but all we've was free periods all the way. Waste of time. So imma skipping lessons tomorrow then! Otherwise, having a mad woman sitting beside me in class is a TORTURE. She loves to irritates and bully and disturb the hell outta me most of the time. Wink. :)))))))) Hahahah. So, caught Robin Hood with my baby boy today @ Bugis. Sent me back after that and his now sleeping like a pig alrd. Soon gonna head to bed too, my eye lids are like drooping only. Okay xxx!

So much of saying

2010-05-23T03:42:00.001+08:00

Results back. Got kinda demoralized by the results compared. Srsly, i need to fucking buck up. Need to!!!!! Out with my babies today. Rushing here and there but ended up still waiting for Cheryl and Vivien to arrive at my crib before meeting Juatling and Lizhuang @ Town. Wanted to catch a movie but end up rotting here and there. Vivien went off then Cheryl next before we all got back home too. And I think my attitude and mood nowadays is damn corked up. Getting irritated and fucked up real easily. Omg maintain plz clara. Fml

I lie awake and miss you

2010-05-16T02:54:00.001+08:00

Camp at home for 3 days, being a good girl accompanying mommydearest and finally got out today. Town with my Juatling and Lizhuang. Met baby after he woke up. Walking tons of rounds around Ion and FEP again. And once again, my dear Juatling never fails to be the paparazzi. Hiak hiak. My dear boy got me a bear from build a bear shop and sent me home after. Thanks swtheart! :)))))))))

Exams are finally over but that doesn't mean there's time for me to relax still. Upcoming holidays are packed with bridging and tuitions ahead. :( Needa break, have a kit-kat soon~ Argh. Okie dokie, time for bed. Eyelids are drooping! Xx.

Be my bulletproof

2010-05-11T00:48:00.001+08:00

Booz.

I flunk my geography papers totally today.

Infact, the whole class seems to flunk it tgt HIAKHIAK.

Met baby last min @ Marina Square.

Wanted to catch a movie but there's not much.

Ate pizza hut.

Hunting around shopping centers.

Baby's friend came.

Lan @ Parklane and i got real bored. :(

Baby sent me home after that.
Thanks silly for the gifts and everything. ♥

And.

I've no either why i'm blogging in this way today.

I just feel like.

Heh heh.

Meeting up my bobofoo tmr for some shopping.

I'm feeling hungry now. But i'm needa go on diet.........

ARGHZXWJDASDJCNASJD.

!&@^!

Warmth of your lips

2010-05-09T02:08:00.000+08:00

Dead tired now. Caught some movies over this past few days with baby and my bbgs. Got up real early on a saturday morning just to head to school for some maths extra class and regretted going because just nothing goes into my head! Homed and nap for an hour or two, met my dear Juatling for movies and baby came after. Parted from them and baby sent me home yet again. Thanks sweetheart. :)

5 papers down, 3 more to go. Need to start memorizing notes all over again. Sighhhh~ Okay, tata. Time for bed sleepy heads!Publish Post

Insert your hearts here

2010-05-02T02:45:00.002+08:00

Happy belated birthday my dear Juatling! Although it's belated up here but i wished you on the dot okay! Shall cut all those mushy and wordy parts. You know i know can alrd. Love you muchies!! :)

Town with a porkcutlet* (hahhaha) on friday and baby came to find me tgt with his friend. Caught iron man 2 and my lens are real irritates in the cinema! Woke up early in the morning, dont know what's got into me that i've weird sleeping disorder nowadays. Cheryl came over my crib and we headed down to town to d.i.y Juatling's birthday cake. And i swear i hate taking cab around my area, it's always hire nor not a single cab!!

Tricked Juatling over and we did it successfully. Heh heh. Hope you like our d.i.y cake baby~ like cui onlyyyy. Amk to meet up with Sarah, Alicia, Joyce and Velda for dinner. Parted with all of 'em and headed down bugis for some window shop. Baby came looking for me again and off hsh. Gonna head to bed soon.

Gym/study tmr with my dear porkcutlet!

Je t'aime

2010-04-26T17:07:00.002+08:00

Met up with Sarah and Alicia @Amk for alittle tad while on saturday before heading to Cheryl's place and her dad drove us down Bugis as there was a heavy downpour and we all stupidly believed that there'll be acid rain so we didn't wanna took the risk. HA. But it was all CRAP! Usual walking around @Bugis and got kinda bored at there so we headed down to our next location Vivo. Yeah, once again it's there.

The dumb dumb Cheryl wanna go Sentosa for some suntan but our attire was seriously inappropriate so we wasted a trip there and just took some snaps around and walked around Universal Studios. Dearest porkcutlet came to look for me. Sucha sweety~ :) And had some chats before home.

Chinese MYE tml. Hope i won't sink into those millions of chinese characters. :<

Will you miss me too?

2010-04-19T22:55:00.001+08:00

Caught up with my dearest darlings last saturday. Met them at Amk first before heading down to Vivo again. Have been there continuously for like the past 3 days alrd. Can roughly speak out the locations of which ever shop is located at alrd. HAHAHAHA. Wanted to catch a movie yet again, but Lizhuang had to go back Amk for her pooling session and time is limited so we decided to just shop and snap around. Had this sour candies with my babies and it tasted nice. But they went to buy more flavours and it seriously sucked ttm. The taste is like similar to medicine. Yuck *_*

Back to Amk and LZ went off while we headed down Bugis. Met up with my daddy, LuZifa. It's been like decades since i last met him. Kekeke. He can never stop his gl-ness!!!! So well, had a emotional saturday night and met Deon as well as Qiulin for church service damn early on the Sunday morning. The service was meaningful and oh, emotional too. Keke Met Agnes and co after that at Sentosa. And got home early, mad tired.

Midyears are like arriving next week already! Haven't started my revisions yet. Gotta get down and study alrd~ And oh. Before i go offfff. Limlim wants me to say 'I miss you' to her. Hehe. Okay, xX.

Soul lover

2010-04-12T19:40:00.000+08:00

Had this super super huge craving for CINNAMON MELTZ now!!!!! Omg omg omg. Feel like just heading out to the mall and get one now. But my laziness is taking over me. So well, shall get it tomorrow instead. :( Remembered catching Ju-On on the saturday with Lizhuang and Juatling. Don't really catch the headline of the story but Juatling was busy covering her ears while lizhuang was busy texting and covering part of her eyes. HAHA. Cute ttm~

Chanced upon Cheryl too and and and the 3 of us walked around Vivo countless times till we seriously whined about it. Spent my weekend with daddy and brother. Caught up quite a number of things and had a lovely day with 'em. Realize been eating fried food continuously for the past few days, gotta restrain myself from any fried stuffs this week then!

Gotta go revise up some of my ss notes nao. I think i made a slight improvement on my school work, starting to pass subjects which i always failed in nowadays. Happy happy me!! ^-^

Killer at heart,

2010-04-06T21:46:00.001+08:00

This page seems kinda dead, shall update some tiny little details about my past few days run abouts. Will try to snap some shots to put up too, kinda lack of pictures I knowwww.

Met up with my dear Cheryl, Juatling and also Lizhuang on saturday. Down to Pasir Ris to meet Randy and his co. Was supposed to head to Singapore expo for the Ester day drama with Weiboon and Qiulin during the late afternoon but couldn't make it. Weiboon then whine and whine nonstop at me and so, i made it up for them on sunday instead. Sorry to cause the both of your to wake up so early cause of me!!! But well, didn't have enough rest throughout the weekends. Met up with Darren Lee and saw the usuals at our usual hangout after the drama. Studied alittle and chatters soon came, by then and all of us didn't have the actual mood to study.

Met up with Ms dino in the night with Darren Kong too. Studied alittle and talked about life stuffs. Midyears are coming and its studying and dnt and studying and dnt all in my mind now!!!! Fucking stress up about dnt. Ughxxxxx. Wish i could drop it. Sighs~~ Gonna have hot chocolate now and rest my mind for the night!^^

Supposedly ours,

2010-04-03T01:58:00.001+08:00

Super dead beat now. Nothing can expresses how much I'm dying to sleep now. Shall make this a quick and short post and then head to Clara in the wonderland. :D Up like as early as 8ish today. Got myself prepared in less then half an hour time and down to ECP. First time i ever got myself ready in sucha fast time! Played games and kite flying over at the beach. The sun was scorching bright and hot, most of us got burns and really couldn't take the weather.

Serangoon around tea-break timing to meet D and R for k-garden. Sing sang sung. Dined there and met Darrens together with Dk's younger brother after that at Buangkok. Crapped around. Me and Darren couldn't stop disturbing Qiulin and Renjia. HAHAHAHA!!! And and pls for godness me and G is pure ok ok ok!! -.- Don't understand why people just keep mistaken when one girl and one guy is 'close'.

Kkk time for sleep! Bye sweethearts ;)

Far at heart,

2010-03-29T21:01:00.000+08:00

Monday blues? Hm.. not really. Only in the morning which I wasn't even late the bell rang after 3mins after i reached but the school gate was unfortunately close already thus detention after school. Solid work today was great, kinda fun but complicating and we ran 2km during our physical lessons. Boy was it tiring. Felt real disgusted after the run, feel like just heading home and have a cold bath after that! Hehe.

And and miss pork pork porkey cutlet made me laughed so hard in class today until I teared, couldn't breathe properly and having huge cramps in my tummy! :( Not only that, each time when i turned and just by looking at her face I couldn't stop my laughters! Besides, she made me laugh almost everywhere we went today. I think after today i'll have 6pacs ah. Laugh too much already!!!!!! Hm.. also, i passed my chinese test after like since long enough! I hated chinese so much am glad i managed to pass the last test by only one mark but still, happy enough alrd! :D

Well.. feeling super lethargic from everything now. Gonna go spam chocolates xx

If only if,

2010-03-28T03:07:00.000+08:00

Clara went out with Juatling and Lizhuang to town.

They caught, When in rome.

Quite a nice show. (Y)

Window shopped around.

Went to Yishun for some beancurd. HAHAHAHA

Hougang for dinner.

Home sweet home after.

;)

And hm.. my nails just cracked. :( FML

huhu.

I never told you so

2010-03-23T17:04:00.003+08:00

Omfg!!!! I'm terribly fucked up now. Got up in the morning, had super puffy and swollen eyes so decided to gave school a miss. Slept back and went online after that just to realized there's error or do you call that bug in my msn. And people can't see me online, i can't see anyone online too! Can't redownload nor delete my msn too. Super angry one you know!!!!!! )<

Feel like sleeping back again cause the weather is like super naise today. And oh! I just notice not only i'm the one having this bug error thing but others too! Ok ok i don't even know what i'm typing lah. It's like nonsense only! Hehe. Pork pork porkey is complaining to me now how bored it is without me in school! Aw.

And i miss your existence.

Fall apart

2010-03-20T04:08:00.003+08:00

St James on the thursday night wasn't that bad afterall. Had fun and partying nonstop. Legs are aching today and am glad that i met up my pork pork porkey for a little tad while just now. Great time chatting with her too but kinda disappointed that didn't get to made this group together yetz. Well.. peoples are tempting me with food on msn but it's like fucking 4am no way am I gonna eat! Fattening!!!!! :( Shall just quickly head to bed to stop my craving for food now!

Gonna have drinking session with my babies tomorrow, hopefully? :) And so fast this 1 week break gonna be over! (N) Say boohoo to school reopening! Aw. Can't time pass alittle slower so that we can enjoy alittle more? Hmm...

Reality,

2010-03-17T23:10:00.001+08:00

Some pictures taken after ROMP V on monday. Not to mention anymore, that day was a fucked up one. Hope tomorrow St James will be alright. Spot me there peeps!!! HAHA. WINK.

Warm my soul,

2010-03-14T00:19:00.002+08:00

Exhausted day yesterday. Basically just dhoby ghaut> clarke quay> sabaisabai> oasis> bugis and back to dhoby! Crapping with ahlimz now and i'm feeling bery bery the b0r3Ddx now ah. Time to order my macdonald already!! HUNGRY :@@@@

Memories stuck in a million picture.

2010-03-10T00:30:00.002+08:00

1. Hi

2. I'm bored

3. I went treasure hunting @ sentosa today with schl

4. Our grp didn't win but most importantly we had fun

5. The weather is super hot

6. Super duper extra more more haze today

7. Still deciding if i should head to schl tomorrow

8. Need to find out what happen between all of them *

9. Need nicotine

10. Feel like watching show

11. But

12. Eyelids are getting heavier and heavier already

13. So

14. Time to sleep :)

HEHE.

It's not love,

2010-03-07T22:12:00.001+08:00

School_gurlxz94. ^^

Caught Alice In The Wonderland yesterday at Amk with my J and C. Wanted to catch the 3D one instead but it was full. This show kinda not bad I can say. Hmm.. Went to study at Bugis with Sarah and Alicia today. Couldn't really much concentrate but well, i'd my chemistry!! Had Yami Yogurt like few hours back and now i'm craving for more of em again! Aw, not forgetting there's school still tomorrow. Dreaded much. :( Having a slight headache now and sore-throat. I don't wanna be sick!! Fuck the weather. Kk off to my shows.

I lie awake and miss you.

2010-02-28T01:17:00.003+08:00

If you're going to love me, love me deeply.

If you’re going to break my heart, then break it all.

If you’re going to care, care for me completely.

If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall.

If you’re going to stay, then stay forever and if you want to leave, then do it today.

If you’re going to change, change for the better.

And if you’re going to talk, please mean what you say.

Crash my love.

2010-02-23T22:04:00.002+08:00

Sigh. Everything has been in a big mess lately.. N levels, relationships, stress and all of it. Currently have a 38.2 degree feverish body and dizzy head but have to persevere inorder to get back in registration for Ns. Homework left lying in my bag now but really don't feel like touching it but i've to!!!! Seriously. Fml. Can't take it much longer man. Oh shit..

She believed.

When tragedy smiled,

2010-02-21T03:09:00.000+08:00

Hai. I'm bored now and i think i'm gonna just head to bed or watch some shows after this post. Apparently I spent my saturday night at home this week to do my DnT coursework after hearing almost a month of nagging from mr ong. Did 1 piece only and left the other 5 pieces lying on my desk still. Same old sickness i've popping out, LAZINESS. HA HA. Seeing the calender, feb gonna pass soon. And I hope it really pass fast enough like a flash as loads of problems been cropping up this chaotic month. You know i know.... :(

Tuition gonna start soon either next month or so. Getting busier and busier each day. Really hate to have to take major exams. FML. Need someone to guide me and motivate me back to my studying mood soon!!! Really been lacking more and more although some says i'm more hardworking this year compared to last. Hehehexx. Alright just saw a LOL video created by Darren and company really got me laughing! AM BORED AM BORED. Feel like emoing in one corner now! Hehe bye~ joke.

13675.) I always wonder what you're thinking.

Xxx

2010-02-16T02:53:00.000+08:00

So cny had finally arrived but I still can't feel the new year atmosphere yet. And besides that, valentines was yesterday. Got up and the first thing i opened my eyes, received a cute but real random text from my sweetheart. Mad cute can he be! So went around collecting angbaoz. Got super little this year but am gonna spent it all on my shopping spree!

Met up with Juatling and Cheryl followed by Huiyee yesterday too. That's how i spent my boring v day without baby. And two bitches bluff me and Huiyee down without appearing. )< But got to met them up today and shopped alittle as 1/3 of the shops in town are opened already! Having serious breakouts again this few days. Should be the amount of powder i'm applying on my face that causes huge harm and the lack of sleep. :( Shall turn in after this post but feeling kinda hungry now.. how???

i wished you understand.

Lock my heart tightly,

2010-02-12T00:48:00.003+08:00

Realised haven't been posting much nowadays. Shall post up a short little update before i head to bed as my eyes are like sore and pain now. Well to compare up january and febuary, this month seems way much better then the previous. And i hope things will gets better as day passes by then worsen. School life have been killing much of my brain cells lately and trying hard to absorb things i've learnt. Feeling the load pressuring me more and more now for Ns as up till now, i haven know much of my basics yet. Really needed tuition badly now although it sucked..

Cny and V day is coming round the corner. Not very much excited but i hope i could see my dear baby boy soon. Miss him much.. how i wish there could be more then 24hours a day sometimes so i can spend alittle time with him. And cookie just frightened the hell outta me by bitting the cage producing a loud bang. HAHA. CUTE. Oh well, I can hear my bed calling out for me, byebye!!

My love,

2010-02-07T23:23:00.002+08:00

Been town continously this few days. Walking and walking with heels can really be a big time killer. Now my muscles and everything are aching badly.. What's more there's dance tomorrow and i can't skip it anymore. :( So, let's start my sumary of this weekend!

Friday, Paris Ris> Bedok> Town> Home.
Was a tiring day and ran 1.4km in school that day. Exhausted much.. and thanks to the heels i wore, i had aching legs which caused me to whine much.

Met Juatling and Cheryl on saturday. Been long since I last met up with them, missed them so much and catch up with each other a little! Had much to say about and we shopped the whole day. Juatling was being a rich bitch that day! HAHAHA. :) Met Felicia @ Paris Ris in the night and didn't know where to go so we stoned there and decided to cab down Drea's place to wait for her. Drea's ideal of fishing then popped out.

At first we girls were all reluctant to go. But we still went and fishing can be mad fun too!! No fishes wanted to ate our bait at first but ended up we each caught a fish. And the weight of it sure is heavy. Oh before that, we girls went screaming and shouting in the cab cause of a tiny cockroach! Funny max.

Cab home in the morning and got a little tad bit of sleep then out again to shop with @AhlinCutlet together with mommydearest!! Homed when both of us are tired and i'm gonna go to bed soon. I hope next week will be a better week. Cny are around the corner, here comes my $$! HAHAHA. :>

Bucket full of love,

2010-02-03T10:06:00.001+08:00

Happy first monthsary babydearest!

I know things has been kinda tough for the both of us this few days, your busy finding a job and i'm also busying studying for my Ns this year. I'm glad that you had already made your plans and i'm happy for you too. Sometimes, as I lie awake at night I think about how everything is gonna be alright. I think about you day and night. You mean so much to me. When you are around nothing is askew, what I really want is you. How can I put this in a simple way I love you, I could never say good-bye. When your not around I ask myself why & when I mess up I cry.. Realizing that I don't wanna lose you. So I just wanna let you know, as what you said, I study hard while you work hard. Love you with all my heart, Pohleung. (L)(K) :-*

I've so much to say,

2010-01-31T23:29:00.002+08:00

29 January It was finally a friday. Looking forward to it as usual cause my weekends are like finally here! School was kinda great as time passes quite fast and our team scored quite well for P.E lessons. Although i didn't really paticipate much but was happy to see the teamwork between us! :)

Met Felicia first and down to Simei. Drea came down shortly and we had our dinner at LJS before proceeding down to FEP. Felicia that bitch was complaining whole day long about her newly bought heels and she's walking as slow as ever! Went hunting for precious jacket and Nicole came down. Cab down to Ikea and fooled around there for awhile. Cab home after that.

Saturday went out of house in the noon and as usual met Felicia first. Bedok to meet Drea and hopped onto her cab to Bishan to meet Xiaobinbin. :) Long since we last seen her! Still as hyper. :) Nicole came down and we had our dinner together. Binbin went off and the four of us just sat outside J8, enjoying the breeze and chats. Headed down to Tanglin when it strike midnight and met those boys there. Rest shall not elaborate.. All of us had a 'morning run' and it was sure fun. Tsk! Cab home and was dead beat then.

Lastly, love @Byesecret @FeliciaAyuki @Heartsxz @Cherylszx @Huiyeee @AhlinCutlet and not forgetting my dearest sweetheart.

I seriously hope Feb will be a better month and cheer up darlings! You know who you are. :>

Rewind the happiness,

2010-01-24T23:07:00.000+08:00

22 January school hours were sucha boredom and feeling uber sleepy. Just found out that h20 drinks contains half a bottle of sugar inside. Sugar rush! HAHA. Got home straight after school, prepared and down to Paris Ris to meet Felicia that bitch! Stranded over at Paris Ris for like hours and then finally decided to go over baby's house with her.

Waited for Vance to come down before all of us head out of his house down to Amk. Vance's dad's pub next and Drea, Huiyee and some others came down too. :) Drank alittle and sang. Those guys are basicly dancing away~ We girls got kinda hypered up ite. And my baby's crazy too! Cute much. :> Cab back home in the early morning.

23 January Got up around 3+ and prepared. Down to Paris Ris to meet Felicia and Justin. Cab down to Vance's dad's pub again. Waited for the usuals to come down but this time baby didn't came. :( So.. while waiting for those bitches to come, me and Felicia drank quite a few cups. Got alittle tispy but still kept drinking. And by the time those bitches came, we both got more tispy. Terrible night i had yesterday. But still, enjoyed alittle. :)

Slept for like only 6hours and went to meet 2 of my lovlies and 1 beancurd at Amk! Hehe. Stranded there yet again and met baby for a little tad while. Homed not long ago and am gonna go shower now. Darren just pranked me and i almost fall for his trap.

xx/ sometimes i wish every perfect moment would stay.

Underneath your heart,

2010-01-19T22:49:00.000+08:00

My morning didn't really start off well. Was fucken tired, fucken hungry and fucken bored in class. But ya. Still did pay alittle attention in class! :) But some lessons can really get me into dream land. Assembly talks about school rules, and such stuffs again. House meeting and went shop and save to eat with Darren and co.

Down to baby's crib after eating and everything and that little ass of mines didn't get any wink of sleep since yesterday! Thus, his alittle crazy and abnormal. Oosp!! Therefore, we got ourselves into cat fights, tickles and wrestling. I admit we're really crazy! HAHA. Got home when the day strike night and I guess that sweetheart is sleeping now cause he ain't replying my text. Shall also head to bed soon after i finish my vocab worksheet.

Gotta buck up in my chem, bio, geo and ss!!!!!

Heavy heart,

2010-01-17T23:27:00.001+08:00

15January Was a friday, was supposed to go Kgarden with Darren and co but couldn't make it in the end. Sorry guys, will make it up!! Met Felicia the bitch @ Pasir Ris and got down Tampines cause she wanted to collect some stuffs. Down to Bedok to meet Drea and then Hanwei. Till noon, cab down to Amk to meet baby and the rest. The cab uncle was boy hilarious.

Planned on a movie but didn't caught it ite. So, down to Oasis for some drinking session. Unfortunately, we girls got bounced out due to our age but got allowed in ite but sad thing was.. there wasn't any available space for us to settle down. So we stoned outside Partyworld for hell long and got some long chats with Precious and Huiyee.

Those boys 'tricked' we girls up onto the cab and we ended up at Kakit Bukit. Hanwei got down and things happened. Cab back with precious around 6+ in the morning.
16January Got only 6hours of sleep and then headed down Bugis to meet Cheryll and Juatling. Shopped alittle and met up with Alicia. Lavander next and headed to Bishan while Alicia went off. Went down baby's house after eating.

Had some tiff with baby and spent my whole night reflecting and whining when i got home.. but am glad that we're both fine now already? 18January Over to daiso to get my stuffs and got over to Darren's place for some movies and chatting around with the usuals. School tomorrow again. Hope nothing affects my mood.

Anyway, love you baby boy. :-* Cheerup please.